So, this girl who has approached me (I should give her a nickname for this blog, but I'm too tired of think one right now - next post maybe) has been back reading this blog, which I think is a great idea. It's also inspired me to do my own back reading of my blog.
It's been... illuminating.
What's interesting to me isn't so much anything about myself that's changed, but rather the things that haven't changed at all. That I am still, essentially, the same person I was when I started this blog. That's interesting to me.
When I came to this entry on responsibility, I had a lot of feelings come up.
I wrote that almost exactly two years ago.
In the last two years I have become more well known in my local scene and on the internet, I've gained more respect. More and more people ask for my thoughts, my opinions, my advice, my time, my effort.
I am still always, always cautious of the responsibility that comes with that. Reading that entry was a lovely reminder of - as I said above - something about me that hasn't changed.
But the more I grow and the more faith people put in me, the more responsibility I gain. It becomes more and more important that I carefully consider my words and my actions. It becomes more and more important that I do my damn best to be kind and compassionate and helpful. It becomes more and more important that I make sure I am worthy of their trust.
I do my best. I always will.
I am glad to see you are retaining true to yourself, that your core YOU doesn't change. It is things such as what you've put up here that allows me to trust you, to respect you, to feel safe and comfortable with you.
ReplyDeleteYour reputation is well deserved, and this is where you can prove it, remember it, and BELIEVE it.
I look forward to seeing you tomorrow, and to keep seeing you doing your best.