A friend of mine is currently going through sub frenzy. We had a chat about it and where it comes from and how to deal with it, and I mentioned that doms go through the same thing although no one seems to talk about that. She went researching (as we nerds do when we want to understand something) but couldn't find much about dom frenzy, and asked if I had any recommendations.
I don't. I've never seen anything written about dom frenzy. I'm sure some exists out there in the quiet areas of the internet, but I haven't seen it.
So I'm writing a post about it.
Dom frenzy is a mental state a dominant can fall into where they want more, they want it all, NOW. They want full control. They want a slave. They want a stable of slaves! They want to live like a roman emperor! They want to tear you apart and put you back together. They want to play three times a day. They want to do edge play, even if they're new! They want to take on complete control and responsibility regardless of whether that's something they can handle.
Like all mental states it looks different on different people. A monogamous person probably doesn't want a stable of slaves, but they might want their slave to be under their thumb as often as possible, all day, all week, all year, no matter what kind of career their submissive has! A poly dominant might literally want a stable of slaves and not care too much about their personal compatibility with each one, as long as they have lots of them. A dominant interested in edge play might go piercing or cutting things they don't know enough about to pierce and cut, because sheer hubris and desire makes them believe they can do it.
Sub frenzy and dom frenzy are similar in the basic ways - from both sides of the coin, it's about wanting MORE, and wanting it NOW. It's about being vulnerable to making bad decisions based on your desire.
The problem with dom frenzy (just like the problem with sub frenzy) is that people get stupid. They think they can do things that they can't. They think they want to own a slave but they don't actually want the responsibility for owning a slave. They want to spend all their time with their submissive and play as much as possible, possibly leaving friendships (and even work) by the wayside. They do risky play that they've had no training in.
Dom frenzy can let you fuck up your relationships and your submissive(s).
So how do you tell if you're in a frenzy?
Like everything in kink, a good self awareness is the best starting point. Know what you're like when you're rational and sensible and then check in with yourself every so often to make sure you're still being that.
Are you thinking about kink more than usual? Are you fantasizing more than usual? Do you find yourself wanting a level of D/s you've not previously desired? Do you want to do more types of play that you've not previously had an interest in? Do you want types of relationships you've not previously wanted? Do you find yourself unable to focus on things that aren't kink? Do you find yourself drifting off and daydreaming about it more than usual?
You might be in a frenzy.
Now in case it's not obvious, all of these things can also just be normal growth experiences. Actually, I'd almost go so far as to say that most states of frenzy are natural growth spurts.
So please don't think that frenzy = completely irrational things that you don't actually want. Because that's not the case at all. The problem with frenzy isn't that it makes you desire new things, it's that you can get over excited and carried away with trying to get them.
So here's some tips on how to deal with frenzy:
First of all, remember frenzy in and of itself isn't a bad thing. It's a growth spurt. You're hitting kink puberty, you're being flooded with all these feelings and desires you didn't really notice before.
Be patient. Your blood is telling you to go and get all the new things NOW NOW NOW. You don't need them now now now. You can wait. Trust me, all those things you want to do or have? They'll still be there when you get to them. Don't go running into things head first, that's a good way to fuck things up. Take it slow.
You can, however, start looking into these new things that interest you. Developed an interest in Master/slave relationships? Read books, read blogs, join a MAsT chapter in your area, meet folks who are in M/s relationships. Got an interest in edge play? Ask around and meet the edge players in your local area and ask them questions and pick their brains. They'll probably be happy to share information with you. Whatever new thing has caught your interest, don't assume that you're not really into it just because you're feeling frenzied. Go and research it. Meet people who do it. Ask questions, watch scenes, let it sink in.
Communicate all your frenzy feelings to the people around you. They probably understand, and talking it out will help you make sure you don't lose your shit. Letting people know where you're at also helps hold you accountable for your actions.
Think about things carefully. Before, after, during. Keep a good awareness of your own mental state at all times. Be analytical, even when you don't want to be.
If you're like me, all of the above is well and good but how do you deal with the blood pumping NOW NOW NOW feelings when they happen? Being responsible is all well and good but how do you deal with frenzy when it's itching under your skin and you can't sit still?
* Watch porn. Whatever fantasies you have, watch porn of them. If you're more of an interactive person, roleplay online. Join ShangrilaMUSH or Second Life, or go into chat rooms for cybersex, or something like that, and get it all out on there.
* Do more of the stuff you can already do. Play more if it's reasonable, using techniques and toys you're already familiar with. If you're in a D/s relationship and you have certain privileges with your submissive built into your contract, use them. Take a small thing and make it a big deal - maybe instead of your submissive just making you coffee in the morning, maybe they have to present it to you on their knees for a few days.
* Spend time on forums and networking sites with people like you. Join fetlife groups for the stuff that's interesting you and read all the discussions. Read collarme or recon personals (although probably don't respond to any unless you've thought about it for a week).
However you deal with it, you'll be okay. Just try to be as clear headed as you can be and don't rush into anything, and you'll be just fine. And honestly? Enjoy the frenzy as much as you can. There's something to be said for the intoxication of desire. :)